Hello 2013!

Instead of saying “Please be great” to this year, I say I know you’ll be a great and awesome year for all of us, 2013! I can feel it! Even before the year was about to start, I was so happy, I don’t know why.

I can say that our past celebrations of Christmas and New Year were merrier and happier. We’re still happy this year, though. It’s just that something’s missing. We don’t do the other things that we usually do before.

This year, I expect some changes in my life. I want to be more focused. I get too distracted with too many things. My main priority should be my studies but I engage myself in an extra curricular activity which is playing the violin. This is somewhat an obstacle to my main goal because we practice everyday. From four in the afternoon until seven in the evening. It’s like I’m giving an extra challenge to myself because considering that my course is quite hard, I even have time to do other activities within my school hours, supposedly. But it’s hard to let go of my Orchestra family now. Playing the violin is my passion. For years, I’ve dreamed of playing an instrument but it only came true after two years. I just can’t let this go easily. Whenever I reach home, I’d often feel sleepy after I eat dinner, I can’t stay up too long to do my home works and review for my quizzes the following day. I do drink coffee sometimes but I hate the effect it gives to my body. I end up feeling weak or sleepy during the morning, which is not a good thing because I can’t pay attention to my instructor.

I want to learn how to balance my time effectively. Last semester, I was really disappointed with myself because I wasn’t able to manage my time well. I didn’t fail in any of my subjects but my grades were quite low. I gave myself a second chance but it only got worse. Now, I’m giving myself a third chance. New year, new chances. I just hope that I won’t let myself down this time. Quitting in the Orchestra wouldn’t be an option for me. I can’t imagine life without that right now.

I want to give importance to all the things that matter in my life. Sometimes, I fail to see what is more important in my life. Just like what I’ve said earlier, I get distracted easily and I do more of the things that pleases me rather than the things that benefits me in my studies. I end up regretting in the end. I want to change this year. I want all my bad attitudes to be removed. I wish it’s just a snap away.

I want to spend more time with my family and friends. I hope I can this year. Ever since I stepped on to the university grounds, I had less time with my friends and family. Last semester, my day starts at seven thirty or eight thirty and always ends up at seven. I’d probably be home by eight. When I get home, I’ll eat dinner and go directly to my room. I don’t have a social life anymore. (Kind of. Really.)

I want to be more responsible. I think my biggest enemy is laziness and sleepiness. I also work very slow. I want all these to change within me.

Looking back to all these “resolutions”, I realized that it’s all related to my academic life. I do hope that I can change this year because I want to make my parents proud. They give me what I ask for and they love me no matter what. I want to make them proud of me this year. And for the following years to come until I graduate. They have big expectations and I should really do my best.

This time, not relating to my academic life. I really want to learn how to do the proper vibrato. (It’s a hand technique in playing the violin.) I really admire our seniors in the Orchestra because they really are great violin players. I know I can still do better since it’s just a year since I started playing the violin.

I want to have more Paris and London things. Hihi. I’m in love with those places and I told myself that I’m going to see those places someday, when I’m already a doctor. (Fingers crossed!)

I want to learn how to speak French and Korean. I already know the basics in Korean writing but I don’t know how to speak it. Haha. Oh well. If only I have the time to learn.

Besides studying and playing the violin, I also want to devote my time in reading novels and writing in my blogs every once in a while. If only there was more time.

Leanne, please change. But stay thoughtful, optimistic, and God-fearing. Hihi. I know this is going to be a good year. This year is one of the endless chances that you have to prove yourself to the world. God Bless! I know I can do it. I know I can make it. I know this year will be great! 🙂

Happy New Year! Happy 2013 to all! I know this will be a good year to all of us! 🙂